Have you ever wondered abt life & death?

Something happened…I’ll be arranging for check up…so until I got the result I won’t be saying anything abt it…

But it caused me to think a bit abt death…somehow tis ‘idea’ of death never did scare me before…when I was single or even married…I used to talk to husband abt it…wat to do if either of us pass away before the other person…but now tat I’ve kids…I’m kind of scared…not for myself…but for them…they’re so young…who would look after them…how are they going to handle it…& so on…I pray & pray with all my heart I’ll be able to see them grow up…I really hope its just a bad scare…!

We are real…living creature…we live & die…so every minute count…use it meaningfully… 

The thunder was so loud last nite…it woke everyone up…Sweetie asked for me & I swapped room with husband…but she still can’t sleep…kept wanting a hug…a song…Cutie didn’t sleep well too…according to husband…he kept carrying her & she was semi asleep…4hrs of sleep gone…!!

Its Sweetie’s 2^nd wk in school…thank God she’s pass the crying phase…! She seems to be back to her usual self…happy to go school (class)…really makes me wonder wat happened during the last wk of May…

Finally managed to get Cutie to eat more than 5 mouthful of brown rice…really takes lots of time coaxing her to open her mouth…even after the food has gone into her mouth we’ve to make sure she swallows it & not spit it out…(funny girl)… 

Cutie is starting to eat brown rice…not very good leh…she keeps spitting it out…will share more later…

Finally completed knitting cutie’s blanket…will post some pictures of it after washing it…

Next is to finish up the sweater…I’m already 95% done…hope to complete it by mid July…I know…no one takes such a long time to knit sweater…especially toddler size…but I dun have tat much time per day…so I’m really taking it slowly…one stitch at a time…

Leviticus 26:6 – I will grant peace in the land, and you will lie down and no one will make you afraid. I will remove savage beasts from the land, and the sword will not pass through your country.

Haven’t been blogging for quite a long time…anyone missed me…? Hahaa…

The past few wks had not been very good…I needed time to be with Sweetie…therefore no time to blog…I mentioned tat she fell sick…tummy ache…went for X-Ray…well…thank God she’s so much better…the tummy ache disappeared – we increased the dosage for her medicine (the one tat help her poo soften)…it also helped her to poo everyday instead of alternate days…after poo-ing everyday for nearly a wk…her tummy ache was gone…she didn’t mention it again…thank God…!

But something else popped up…something I was not prepared for…something I dun really know how to handle…“Monsters”…there was a nite she simply refuse to sleep…tossing & turning in bed…asking for one more story…one more song…I tot she was being naughty…didn’t want to sleep…my patience reached its limit…I scolded her…told her if she’s not interested in sleeping then I’m not patting her to sleep…I walked out of the room…she cried…my husband went to her…ask her wat happened…she just cry…asking for me…in the end (less than 5mins)…I went back to her room to tell her story…sing songs…she finally fell asleep…total time taken to get her to sleep tat nite was more than 2hrs…!! The next nite…something similar happen…she didn’t want to sleep…I told myself not to be so ‘harsh’ to her…try a different method…talk to her…ask her why she didn’t want to sleep…then she started asking for her grandma (my mum)…she said she missed her…tat’s impossible…cos we go over my parents place everyday…! I ask her to tell me honestly wat’s going on…& then she whispered…“There’s monsters”…OMG…!! I can see from her expression she was afraid…she was not faking it…I was not prepared…I didn’t know wat to do…so I just told her there’s no such thing as monster…try to comfort her…in the end I resort to the only thing I know will work best…I carried her on my lap…rocked her to sleep…well…not really till she sleep…I rocked her till she’s semi-asleep…then put her back on the bed & pat…since then she kept trying to delay sleep time…so I’ve to coax her to bed around 10.30pm & by the time she fall asleep it usually 12am…I know its really late…but tis is the best I can do…we read books…I tell story…sing songs…hope & pray in my heart she’ll not mention abt the “M” thingy…then I did some ‘mini research’ on how to deal with tis sort of issue…family friend (husband & wife) who are from Australia came over to visit their daughter…we all met up & they drop by our place to pray for us…for the past 3 nites Sweetie was so much better…she is still trying to delay the sleeping time but there was no mention of “M” & also I can see from her facial expression she’s more relax…her delaying of sleeping time is so tat she can read books or to sing songs…not so much due to fear…thank God…I pray tat she’ll overcome tis issue…

Do any of u know how to deal with such issues…? Do share ur tots with me…

Cutie is 5mths old…! Really fast ya…! She’s growing real well…a very cheerful baby…

I’m going nuts…really soon…if there’s a stress tester with me now…I think my reading will hit the max…sigh…

Month of May didn’t go pass very well…Sweetie was sick for 2wks (the longest she ever had in 3 years)…she started crying for no reasons – didn’t want to go to playschool…her mood was up & down…round & round…she fell…it was not really serious but she kept complaining abt the pain @ her forearm…PD advised to go for X-Ray…which we did…thank God it was nothing…then for the whole of last wk she kept getting tummy ache (cramp like)…it lasted 2 to 3 mins…then its gone…went to see PD…most likely constipation…she did poo…but maybe not all clear…

Cutie needs to cry to sleep…its getting better than last mth but still crying…

My shoulder ache is on & off…more on than off…

Goodness…I’m so tired…

Last wk was terrible…a very tough wk for both Sweetie & me…I dun even know wat happened…

She woke up happily on Monday morning…got ready to go to school…my parents drove her to school…but something happened – but I dun know wat – she refused to go to class…she cried & cried…my parents were shocked…they didn’t know wat to do…Sweetie cried a lot…even threw her snack box & water bottle on the floor…it’s the 1^st time such things happened…! In the end…they brought her back home…

For the rest of the wk I fetch her to school…but it was no better…she still cry…dun want to go into class…but I made her go in…we stood outside the classroom for 1hr on Tuesday…talking to her coaxing her…finally I pass her to the teacher…she cried super loudly for nearly 10mins (I was still outside – heartache)…Wednesday came…same thing…stood outside the class for nearly 1hr…crying but softer…handed her to the teacher…& she cried…also very loudly…Thursday was better…stood outside the class for nearly 1/2hr…when I pass her to the teacher she cried for awhile…but stopped in less then 5mins…

I did ask her (many times) why she dun want to go to class…but she can’t give me a reason…I asked if any the teachers or friends ‘bullied’ her (although I didn’t put it across like tat)…but there was none…nothing different happened…why the sudden change…?!

It seems like a small issue…but its causing stress to me…I dun know wat’s wrong…& so I can’t ‘help’ her…it hurts me to see her cry…not wanting to go to class…but every time after settling down…I can see (they have a CCTV so parents outside can see wat’s going on in class) tat she’s enjoying herself…singing…doing crafts…playing…

Wat will the coming wk be like…??