I’m going nuts…really soon…if there’s a stress tester with me now…I think my reading will hit the max…sigh…

Month of May didn’t go pass very well…Sweetie was sick for 2wks (the longest she ever had in 3 years)…she started crying for no reasons – didn’t want to go to playschool…her mood was up & down…round & round…she fell…it was not really serious but she kept complaining abt the pain @ her forearm…PD advised to go for X-Ray…which we did…thank God it was nothing…then for the whole of last wk she kept getting tummy ache (cramp like)…it lasted 2 to 3 mins…then its gone…went to see PD…most likely constipation…she did poo…but maybe not all clear…

Cutie needs to cry to sleep…its getting better than last mth but still crying…

My shoulder ache is on & off…more on than off…

Goodness…I’m so tired…

Last wk was terrible…a very tough wk for both Sweetie & me…I dun even know wat happened…

She woke up happily on Monday morning…got ready to go to school…my parents drove her to school…but something happened – but I dun know wat – she refused to go to class…she cried & cried…my parents were shocked…they didn’t know wat to do…Sweetie cried a lot…even threw her snack box & water bottle on the floor…it’s the 1^st time such things happened…! In the end…they brought her back home…

For the rest of the wk I fetch her to school…but it was no better…she still cry…dun want to go into class…but I made her go in…we stood outside the classroom for 1hr on Tuesday…talking to her coaxing her…finally I pass her to the teacher…she cried super loudly for nearly 10mins (I was still outside – heartache)…Wednesday came…same thing…stood outside the class for nearly 1hr…crying but softer…handed her to the teacher…& she cried…also very loudly…Thursday was better…stood outside the class for nearly 1/2hr…when I pass her to the teacher she cried for awhile…but stopped in less then 5mins…

I did ask her (many times) why she dun want to go to class…but she can’t give me a reason…I asked if any the teachers or friends ‘bullied’ her (although I didn’t put it across like tat)…but there was none…nothing different happened…why the sudden change…?!

It seems like a small issue…but its causing stress to me…I dun know wat’s wrong…& so I can’t ‘help’ her…it hurts me to see her cry…not wanting to go to class…but every time after settling down…I can see (they have a CCTV so parents outside can see wat’s going on in class) tat she’s enjoying herself…singing…doing crafts…playing…

Wat will the coming wk be like…??

Time flies…she’s 4mths already…

Continuing in the “Change in Perspective”…well…another major change I did was co-sleep…before I share more…I’ve to define my ‘version’ of co-sleeping…it means sleeping on the same bed…as in the baby on the same bed as the parent…some ppl define co-sleeping as sleeping in the same room…I dun think so…

When I had Sweetie we were staying with my parents…all 3 of us (husband + Sweetie + me) were sleeping in the same room…Sweetie was in her cot…beside our bed…she never slept on our bed…I made a choice not to let her sleep on the same bed as us cos there was no space…also I was afraid either of us might crush her…so for nearly 3 years she slept in her cot beside our bed…

Then Cutie arrived & we got our own place…husband & I discussed the sleeping arrangements…there’re 2 bedrooms at our new place…we decided its best for us to spilt…he’ll sleep with Sweetie – she on her bed & he on the floor…I’ll sleep with Cutie…its not really possible for all of us to be in the same room…cos Cutie’s cry will wake Sweetie…we can’t leave Sweetie in the room herself too…she has never slept by herself before (although some think she’s old enough to sleep by herself)…

Back to the topic of co-sleeping…due to the layout of the room…its not possible for us to put the cot beside the bed…so I have 2 choice…either I let Cutie sleep in the cot & I’ve to get up walk over to pick her every time she needs to drink or I can take the easy way out…to let her sleep beside me on the bed…which means co-sleep with me…I told myself why not give it a try…husband was also quite supportive…he asked me to try co-sleeping with Cutie for the 1^st few nites…well…one week past…then another…then another…we’ve shifted to our new place for more than a mth…& tat’s how long she’s been sleeping on my bed…

Actually…I’ve no regrets on choosing to co-sleep with her…it made my life easier…haha…I just have to turn around to feed her…also I can stretch out my hands to pat her / stroke her easily…anytime I want…

Well…want to share ur views on co-sleeping…?